mother of a boy

Be careful with your heart, they say.
A boy might break it someday.

Be cautious what you share, they say.
You may never get it back.

Boys are tricky and icky, they say.
Don’t ever get too close.

Unfortunately, these rules don’t hold true
when the BOY they’re talking about is a SON.

I gave my heart.
I shared it all.
I fell in love.

… but ...
something happened
I could not change,
and now,
a piece of me is missing.
I’ve been left with a broken heart,
shared all that I could possibly share,
and got closer than I dare admit.

The heartache hasn’t gotten any less,
maybe just less obvious on the outside.

Maybe someday…

he will understand,
know a mother’s love is endless, and
want a relationship with me… with his brothers.

I miss my boy.
He turns 20 today.
I miss him more than words can say.



Happy Birthday, Alek!

Love,
Mom xo